Joffy
‘Nn-nn-ooo-nnnooot… Nnnoott-en-enn…’
‘Not enough? That’s what you’re saying, Joffy?’
‘Yyyy-yy…’
The cleaver came down again, cutting away more from the red wedge of meat between the butcher’s hands. Joffy, his head level with the marble slab, watched the pile of cubes before his eyes grow.
‘How much more, Joffy? Your mammy only wrote steak.’
Joffy held the meat between his hands, then held his head in the same way.
‘As big as your head,’ his mother had said, sending him out. ‘Get enough steak that would fill up your head.’
Faced with the meat now, though, he couldn’t tell how much that was. It could be squashed, it fell into a sunken heap, but his head had its own hard shape. He looked up at the butcher, Mr McCaufrey, the only man who came to see them now, the only person, apart from those who came to pry and ask questions. Mr McCaufrey waited patiently, as usual, smiling, his face red as the blood on his broad hands, but this was too hard for Joffy. There was nowhere to begin. His tongue squirmed uselessly between his teeth.
‘Tell you what, Joffy. You take this, and if you need more, you can come back for it. Okay?’
Walking the hill out of the village, Joffy could feel the meat sliding beneath the pressure of his fingers. He watched blood collect in the corners of the white plastic bag. He knew it didn’t matter if there was too little or too much. She was angry anyway, and all yesterday, all this morning, had been shouting at him.
‘The cow better not start nosing about again,’ she said, her mouth twisted, scornful, ‘She’s just like the rest of us underneath it all. Thinks her money gives her some right, but it doesn’t.’
The cow was Auntie Eileen. She was coming today, Saturday, to spoil it. On Saturdays he liked to be alone. His mother went out, not to return until the next morning, telling him he must stay near the house, go no further than the garden. He’d go to the quarry to sit by the pond there. It had begun to be packed with frogs now that spring was on its way. He’d play with them, until darkness came near, then run quickly home, trembling with anticipation.
But today he would have to stay with them, his mother and his aunt. Auntie Eileen had been before, and he hated her, was frightened by her. She wouldn’t just leave him like most other people did, but was always wanting to t