Miramar
Rats have been running riot here all winter. I start to itch as soon as I see the destruction: the broken ceramic dishes on the floor and the serviettes turned to confetti. Their tiny turds everywhere, little seeds of blood.
‘Maybe because they ate salt?’ my son wonders. ‘The salt dish is empty.’
The transistor radio’s cable, the matches, the scented candles we set on the table outside during long summer evenings, the aluminium paper; they tore through everything they found. A woven basket too, upturned on the floor. I give it a little kick, fearful that one of those beasts may be hiding in it and run towards my ankles.
‘They’re not around now, Ama, they come out at night. I heard them make a hell of a racket some time ago, on the ceiling… I’ve no idea how they got in. It’s almost as if rats shape-shift their bodies into smoke when they smell food.’
‘They probably found some leftovers from the last time you ate here with your friends. You don’t even sweep up after you use the place,’ I snap at my son.
‘We should get a cat,’ he replies, pretending not to have heard me.
It smells of damp and dust, of enclosed air. Multiple spider webs, thick as shoelaces, hang from the beams. Fragments and dust shed by the bricks inside the chimney have covered everything in a thin, copperish film.
‘We shouldn’t keep the place locked up like this. If we can’t look after it between us, I’m going to have to sell it.’ Look after it between us. Who is thisus. My son and I. I go on, braiding my rope of complaints.
‘Expenses and more expenses, that’s all this place is: taxes, electricity, water bills, and the maintenance it requires every year to keep it half-decent. Look at these walls, they’re all chipped again.’
It’s the saltpetre that causes them to bubble and crack; back in the day, masons used to mix concrete with beach sand.
‘Careful on the steps. One of them is broken and the nails are sticking out.’
Coming here felt different before. Every time I come now, I have to run a rake through the place. I never write here anymore. Writing in the garden – that’s a thing of the past.
‘Ama, don’t come into the bathroom.’
‘What now?’
He steps aside to show me the toilet bowl. A huge rat has drowned in the hole.
‘It must have been thirsty,’ says my son, laughing. ‘Get me something to take it out with; a piece of wood, or, better still, the shovel from the shed.’
‘No, step away. I’ll do it.’
I put rubber gloves on and grab the rat by its tail, but it slips out of my grasp and falls on the floor. It makes a sound like an oily balloon when it hits the tiles. I grab hold of it again, from the neck this time, as if it were a kitten. I throw it on top of the pile of stubble that I’ve been meaning to burn for months. My eyes and nose streaming, I retch.
My son leaves, taking the path that leads on to the street.
I stay there, looking at what used to be a vegetable garden, patches o